Ebb & Flow
Monday, 11 March 2013
I always used to find myself so productive when I was busy. I'd be amazed at how much I could accomplish in a day and although it was stressful, I was focused and motivated.
It's certainly no secret around here that I'm not busy. There's this and that, coffee on Tuesday, lunch on Thursday types of things. There's laundry and cooking and cleaning and all of those less glamourous aspects of life and walks along the seafront and skype chats home. The days are passing and I'm content albeit lackluster.
I suppose what it comes down to is a lack of passion which inevitably leads to a lack of inspiration and motivation. Before becoming a trailing spouse, I felt so passionately about my career - perhaps a little too much, leaving myself completely worn out after 5 years and desperately wanting a break. While I'm not necessarily feeling a pull back to the classroom, I am wondering where my passions lie outside of it.
Where do I want to focus my energy, my mind space and my time?
In the last few weeks my 'Drafts' folder has substantially grown. Posts are started, a sentence or 2 written, labels clicked, a photo edited, a title picked, another sentence typed and then erased until finally, the post is closed and filed away in that ever expanding folder with a promise to pick it up when I'm feeling more focused and inspired. I'm certain it's all tied together- this undefined passion, lulls in motivation, inability to express thoughts concisely (as evidenced here in this post,) and unfinished drafts.
Bear with me as I navigate this ebb. The flow is always around the corner.